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++Fish&Chips++
lost. a word to describe my feeling now.. i sudden felt a feelin of bein distant from any1.. i felt unwanted sometimes from any1..i cant really figured out wat happened.. i jus felt tt way.. i was happy before.. im problem-less.. im always the one to console ppl in the past..but now i felt tons of problems pullin mi down.. problem tt i cant solve, problems tt i dun even can figured out.. maybe im jus sensitive or wat.. but come on.. i dun have the ability to change my character or wat.. its in my blood.. im a girl whos jus like tt.. i wouldnt want a weak character at all.. and the problems is really drivin mi nuts..
sometimes when i am alone, the problems will start flashin through mi like lightning.. then automatically tears will jus roll down from eyes to cheeks.. a lot of things had happen to mi.. and problems tt are much more diffcult to cope and solve.. and not all problems i will have the courage to say it out..
"Aquaintances i have damn alot. Too many to count. But how many true friends do i have? How many people do i consider as friends, and who consider myself a their friend too?"
let mi name some.. carikellieweilinvivian'sjaslynxiaoyincindyshimin.. 10 of them.. 10 of my ture friends.. but how many of them consider mi as one of their true friends? no one knows.. only them.. maybe there are ppl out there who got mi as one of their true friends but i didnt name them out.. just like tt.. im not complainin or wat.. jus a question i think almost any1 will give a thought to.. it dun feel good.. it dun, when i think of this.. in the past i could jus take it lightly.. but now.. i dunno.. i really dunno.. can jus any1.. i mean ANYONE.. to guide mi thought tis? tis is the question tt i will run away from when i felt lonely..
to mi, friends is something tt was very important to mi.. i lost them once, i DUNWAN to lose them the second time.. tts y i see friends so importantly.. jus tt sometimes i may be a little attitude or mean or proud or childish or lame or nosy or noisy or playful or sensitive......... but afterall all of u guys are forever my number1.. if u guys desnt like mi in a way or an other, u all could jud tell mi straight in my face.. come on.. i can take it.. in tis way, firstly i wounldnt lose a frien ans secondly i will become a much better person.. isnt tt a better way? and if i did nth wrong.. pls.. dun dig the past and create chaos out of it.. it hurts.. it really hurts..